18 Weeks and Chubby

It's a miracle I'm actually doing a blog post. I don't really know why this is so difficult for me. Probably because I'm not much of a writer. Never has been a strength of mine. But since we have something fairly exciting happening in our lives I though I might try to document it some way.

In May we found out that we are expecting our first baby. We are very excited.....well Chris is really excited. I'm 25% excited 75% freaked out. But seriously I'm really freaked out. It's all just very overwhelming. I have done nothing to prepare so far. I have not purchased one thing. Or done one thing to prepare the room of chaos to be a nursery. I figure once we find out the gender of the little one I can maybe start doing some of that. We find out what we are having on September 19th. I am very excited for that. It will be nice to say him or her instead of it. Then I can narrow my names down by half and baby start thinking about that some more. And maybe start buying some things.

I have come to the realization that I think all these women who love being pregnant and think its a beautiful experience are kind of full of crap and not being realistic at all. I know there are some great things about it. But I think for the most part...at least so far....and I can't imagine it getting to much better...its kind of crap. You feel sick for at least 3 months (lucky me and just felt gross and didn't have to chill at the toilet.) You face bre

aks out and you feel uglier and more of a misfit than when you were in Jr. High school. Then you just start feeling really chubby...soon your clothes don't fit anymore and you have absolutely nothing to wear. So you have to go buy clothes that you don't really feel like you have money for because you have so many other expenses that you are anticipating with this baby. Then you can sleep at night. You get these horrible cramps in your legs at night and you think your dying. And I'm sure as the months go on new horrible things will start happening.

Anyways just my opinion. I don't really sugar coat things. Some people would call me a pessimist I call myself a realist.

In exciting news I have started to feel the baby moving. I would lay down at night and think...was that it? I didn't say anything to Chris or anyone because I just wasn't sure. But now it has definitely become more distinct, and that is exciting. I'm excited to be able to feel it more and more.

So I debated posting baby bump pictures like this or not. I feel very self-concious because I feel very chubby and not cute like many other pregnant women. I thought if I didn't do it I might regret it though. I like seeing other people photos and how they grow. So here it is. 18 weeks!

I was getting ready to go to Zumba...hence the outfit. Please don't judge my already chubby arms, I'm sure they will grow with the chubby bump.